in my heart it's the five of us.

these past couple of weeks have been filled with laughter, anxiety, life lessons, and a lot of everything bagels. i haven't posted in a while because i haven't had anything that great to write about. i want this blog to be a place where i can be passionate, so i'm not going to write for the heck of it. not that it matters because i'm pretty sure only my family and a few others read this (by the way shout out to my grandma for printing out my blogs and showing them to my great grandma--i'm glad someone likes them). this week has been filled with small joys and i am so thankful for them. by "small joys" i mean anything from skyping ryan for this first time this semester to getting the last everything bagel at dunkin.  my favorite part about this week though happened tonight--all 5 of us roomies finally had a dinner together. we signed our lease about a year ago and things have changed so much, in the best way, since then. if you don't want to know all about my roomies, then you should just stop reading. because thats what the rest of this post will consist of. we went to el rod's and it was filled with delicious food, lots of laughter, and creepy hispanic waiters saying things we didn't understand. it was awesome. i don't tell you girls enough (or ever) how much you mean to me, so here it is!

here's to you and all that you are.

 i don't know if they feel this way, but i think each of them adds something totally different but completely necessary to the house and to the girls that live here. megan is the one i go to when i need advice. whether its advice about what to eat, or something more serious like spiritual advice, megan is always very wise and very thoughtful in her response. for example, last week i didn't know if i should go to uva for  just the night and spend a total of maybe 3 hours hanging out with ryan and she came back with something along the lines of "you are in a long distance relationship and sometimes you have to make sacrifices for love so i think you should go". so i went, and it ended up being something our relationship needed. meg, thank you for guiding me always. rebecca is always asking questions about everyone else's life because she honestly cares, not because she wants us to ask her the same question. i think that is something i struggle with and i am so glad i found that in a beautiful roomie and friend. although she is always buzzing in and out of the house to go study or do sorority stuff or go to meetings, she has never once neglected to ask how my day was. i think that caring about people so much that you allow them to be real about their lives day after day is a lost quality; "becky" (lol), never lose that because it is a wonderful quality to have. thank you for loving me so well. hannah is two things; she is the first one to make us laugh and the first one to send a group text scolding us for not doing the dishes. i have never met someone as weird and hilarious as her, and i mean that in the best way possible. i could be having the worst day and then be around her for 5 minutes or less and instantly i just feel better. she keeps our house running and is the supplier of water bottles. our house would be dirty, have no electricity, be laughter-less, and have to drink out of the faucet if it wasn't for you. han, thank you for the free laughter (and water) you have given our house and for ultimately inviting us to be our weirdest, truest selves around you. lastly, caitlyn. i don't even know where to begin with you, ya freaky. cait is my cinderella story watching buddy, my style guide, my always up for campus cookies and taco bell homegirl, and most of all my best friend. i would not have survived last year without you. like i literally think i would have quit school. we went from awkward freshman with no friends to still awkward sophomores with like 4 friends (woohoo, go us). we are past the point of just being roomies and are honestly like sisters now. we fight and love, just like sisters do. thank you for being my best friend. 

we are pretty much done with this semester and have one more to go for this year, and my heart is slowly starting to hurt thinking about all of us not living together next year. this first year really living on my own without any support from parents or the university is such an important one. you girls have allowed me to grow and feel safe and be loved. i can never thank you enough. i love you i love you i love you.