here i am world.

a couple of days ago one of my favorite people posed a question to me that really got me thinking. this person really has a way of being boldly honest with me and i believe Jesus uses this person to show me what my heart truly wants and deserves. the question was this: what are your passions? immediately i was like oh well i'm really passionate about being a taylor swift fan, duh. in my head i knew that wasn't a real passion. so i began frantically searching my mind to find a passion that i could call my own. cheerleading? well yes, but that can't be a passion in my life right now. cooking and baking? i hope it's a passion one day because i want to be domestic and everything but its not in my best interest financially right now. kids? yes, but thats not tangible. that whole day and a couple days after i felt lost. i felt confused. how can i be so in love with so many things but none of them are my one and only passion? i love glitter and sparkles and puppies and love and children and cookies and happy things but those things can't be my passion. and then it came to me. i love writing. not writing in the essay kind of way but writing in the i'm going to send you a long text to make you feel loved kind of way. writing is so much easier for me than talking is. i studder and get nervous and its just hard to speak sometimes. so now we are here. i am writing and starting this blog, not even sure if anyone but my mom will ever read it (hey mom!). but i dont care. i'm going to write. i'm going to be real. and i'm going to have so much fun. i have always wanted to blog but i never thought i had anything worthy to write about. i always just assumed i would start one when i had kids. but i am going to start now. this blog is going to be a place where i can write about jesus, my friends, my school, my family, and i can still make jokes along the way. here goes nothing. just a 19 year old girl writing about her feelings (original, i know). i hope you (whoever you are) enjoys reading these as much as i enjoy writing them. this is all i will write about for now, since the only eventful thing happening in my life right now is that i have a blister on my foot that wont go away.